An Acquaintance with Life !

I met a kid, who did not really know what he wanted, but was so full of life that even the happiest man on this Earth would envy him. I was amazed at how well had he described what he wanted in his life. But, despite that, when asked, he was unclear of his ambitions. His desires did not really match with his reality. But his eyes had a sparkle that could give light to someone who needed it most. “How can I decide if I want something, unless I try it?”, that’s what he said. It may be true in some matters but how can someone live a life of trial and error? He actually did. 


He not just believed in trying most of the things himself, but also made sure that he encouraged others to do the same. He had the power to inspire and make you do things despite you not wanting to. He almost ended up asking me a million questions and linked together everything I liked and then called me “multi-talented”. Honestly, whether I believed it or not, I liked it. His tiny eyes had innumerable dreams that needed fulfillment. But he had a spark in him that raised him above all. When he looked at the expanse of the sea, he looked like a dreamer, a lover, a giver....! Someone who had the heart to give more than what he wanted. 


I wonder, how many of us really have the courage to actually try all that we like or get fascinated by? Very few, I guess. But these few people are the happiest folks you may find and are indeed the most admired ones as well. Not because they know a lot, but, because they can show you a lot. 


I always thought and followed the idea, that people need to be taught what they don't know. It gave me pleasure to see them smile back with the pleasure of having learnt something new from me. I loved seeing people turn more knowledgeable and skilled; and felt proud of myself for having been a reason behind it, though not a significant one. But, I had forgotten that each person is born with some or the other talent that they may not have realized yet. And that this talent, if reminded could turn into a miracle. I saw this in him. How easily had he reminded me of all the things I was missing, in the wake of being busy; my Guitar, my dance, my sketches, colours, paintings,... just about everything. 
I cleaned my Guitar that day, after months. :)


We must love ourselves first, to be capable of giving love to others. But, do we actually follow the thought, having said that? He did not have any such well drawn principals in his life, but lived by most of those. Each passing moment made me feel the splendor of his thoughts.


That evening, the sun had set in a blaze of glory and I had an acquaintance with life.




- Pie

Someday...In life

If you cannot talk to me,

I shall not utter a word.

If you cannot look at me,

I shall not catch your sight.

If I come in your way,

I shall change my path.

But once in this life I know I shall,

Want you by my side;

And sing to me, a song.

Someday...in life;

Once before I'm gone.

- Copyright 2011, Pie

Prithee

In the darkest of nights

When a fire is lit.

A heart burns in scarlet desires

Like dried leaves in heaps of flames.

Across; I see thy eyes deeply drowned in mine

So full of love, luster and smile

As if to read each bit in my mind.

A wave of silence, so sharply comes

As a shaft pushing me down on shale.

Like a silver bullet; it hurts.

But, thy smile again pacifies me.

I sit back and look close into thee.

To me, thou came as the divine Pan.

Thou art the prithee of my heart !

- Copyright 2011. Pie  

Meanings:

1. Prithee - It is a short of "Pray thee"; here used as "prayer"

2. Shaft - Sharp sphere like weapon

3. Shale - Rock

4. Pan - The ancient Greek GOD of forests & pastures

Success

Can you please help me define "success"? Well, I had been thinking of it for long now. Many a times, I was trapped with the thought as to what exactly should be termed as success. Is it the monetary value of your achievements, your qualifications, your position / designation or something else all-together? And each time I started thinking on this aspect, I got a different reply from my very own mind. Each person I asked, gave me a different meaning and each situation I came across added different hues to it. I couldn't really figure out the exact meaning of the word, "Success".

When I think about the 2 and a half years I spent in my profession, I remember to have changed my thinking in terms of what I expect from it, a number of times. Initially, I only needed a job that could pay for my education and that read as "Research". I did not really know what all it involved. But, as time passed by, I fell in love with it. So much that I did not want anything more than that in my life. Without my notice, my profession had become my "Food for Life". I love it a bit too much, I guess.

Soon after I was well acquainted with Research, I wanted more out of it, God knows what. I knew that I needed more money but that was not all. I also wanted to be "Someone", known to people and spoken about. My greed had increased, though gradually. I was no longer satisfied by the 15 people in my office knowing me. I needed more. And as the luck may have it, I became the Senior Analyst and an Assistant to our CIO. I started going to a number of analyst meets and began interacting with the top management of various companies. I had stepped into a larger set of "known people".

So often we do not realize that the things we go chasing for may not be the ones we need or want. When we run, we can feel the momentum of the things that rush past us. But, we cannot see what went along, that we might have so badly longed for. With a cake in my hand, I had forgotten to learn how to make it. What if the cake got over? A thought. And I stopped running. For a moment, I felt lost. Like a whirlpool, everything started to turn in and around me. I sat back and begun to know the recipe and started with the most important ingredient of the cake- "Knowledge". I knew now for sure, what I was seeking.

Sometimes, to get something good out of life you have to let go off what you have gotten yourself addicted to or something that you have almost started to love. That's what I was about to put myself to. "A test of time". Seriously thinking, I am still confused as to how shall I define "Success". But, I know for sure that it is something that puts you on a higher level compared to yourself, each time you desire to grow up. The only thing that can hold your hand and drive you to that goal of yours, is your own courage and focus. 

If you are able to define what you want out of your life, Success will define itself.

Cheers to Life !

Had destiny not planned the plan before
Of the life that seems so smart.
I would have missed the fun or rocks
And the thrill in driving a cart.

-Payal Pandya 

When ever I think about my life, I always want to make it big. Bigger than that of anyone else. But I never seem to have known the right way. The only thing I can do is, evaluate each moment as it comes, live it to the fullest and try to make it different in some or the other way, no matter how small it may be. This is another attempt to do something that can make people remember me.

On this blog I shall keep posting my poems, new and old; my articles and short stories; some informative stuff that may be rare and at times some financial gyan as well. Please let me know your opinions and suggestions, as this is my first attempt to put forward my writings to everyone.